The Reason Why

This blog isn't necessarily intended to be read. If you're reading this, I don't know how you found it, but enjoy I suppose. My soul is on these pages, spilled out from my heart. Each and every entry has been written by me. Somethings may not make sense to you and that's okay.

Monday, April 29, 2013

People

People.
People can do anything.
They can bring people up or push others down.
They can have a heart so full it could burst or, a heart that when you walk by feel nothing at all.
They can be your saving grace on a horrible day, or be the reason why it was so horrid.
They can be tough, act tough, or be weak.
Anything you name it; it's possible.
Yes, anything and everything.
How you let it affect your day however, is completely up to you.
100%
So, wouldn't it be simpler to just brush things off and make the best of it?
May seem simple but the easy thing to do would be to let it over take your emotions.
While walking down a street to cross, you wait for there to be a break in traffic, that is easy, the more complex thing would be to just walk across with no knowledge of what's around you.
See, the right thing isn't always easiest, and the easiest thing isn't always right.
Remember that.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

I can, I will.

I can move on.
I can look past.
I can learn rather than regret.
I can forgive.
I can love.
I can work my hardest.
I can be anything I want to be.
I can do so many different things with my life.
I will succeed.

See

Can you see the pain behind these tired eyes?
The eyes that cried all night for you.
The eyes that are strong but weakness is revealed.
The eyes that see the world maybe in a different way.
The eyes that once looked into your eyes; were filled with excitement.
All that is left is another way to look.
But, which way?

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Crying and Trying, It's What We Do

The way your face lights up when you see me down the hall.
The way you grab my hand, as if it were no question at all.  
You hold on and try while she sat back and cry.  
You wanted, while she wished. 
You both dreamed, together. 
You gave.  She a little.
There isn't enough time, not for you she cry. 
You sigh.
She says it's enough it's getting too tough.
You cry water down your cheeks that used to be so rosy.
It isn't water it is feelings leaving the body.
Next, she try and you walked on by, with another girl on your arm.  

Cast Iron

As you walk down the halls you hid yourself as if you didn't exist.  That's how you feel, as if you don't exist.  I can see the bruises I can see the pain.  On your face it's written with drying teardrops in place.  I know it's rough but, you are so tough.  Don't you say you're not because you are holding on for some reason.  You say you're okay, I know you're not.  The smile is just a cover up.  The words that she says to you; the punches she throws at you put dents into your cast iron but, don't break, please, hold on.  Just on more day hold on to what I say.  Realize it will someday get better maybe not today, wipe the tears off of your face.  Don't let go.  You came to school today; I could tell it had been a rough night.  You put your hands up against your face and I could see the slits down your wrist.  You're still hanging on by a thread but that thread is breaking.  It's breaking all down.  But hold on when you've had enough I know it really is rough.  Please don't say goodbye.  I know that on the inside you are saying "this is it".  Hold on let this be a sign you'ere worth it to me.  The black and blue means you're strong.  The red means you're torn.  Hang on to me.  You're worth it.  To me.

Crystal Clear

Having no where to go.  Even if you don't even know.  About anything.  Someday sometime it will all make sense.  The puzzle pieces will come out from the dark.  The shot in the dark will blossom with light.  A shady lens will become crystal clear.  You will soon see everything more near.  Closer than it's ever been and in that exact moment you were intimate.  Mind shifting gears not keeping up with what's running through your mind.
Chrystal clear.

Shadow

Just the girl left in the shadow behind.  Love has crossed her mind but never been known.  Who is she?
It couldn't possibly be me.
No where to run,
No where to hid,
but behind the shadow of her own.

Soar

I hid my feelings.  I warp them into something they're not.  I won't let you see the tears I cry at night because, I try to put it behind me and hope it turns out alright.  Like the sky with a flying kite.  Someday I will soar with the wind and the night will turn to light.

Alternate

I feel like I get turned into an alternate.  Ever wish a guy would just beg and plead to just be with you?  I'm not talking about after they make a mistake and trying to get you back but, just out of the cold blue sky?
Without asking a reason why you can call me a dreamer but I know he's out there somewhere, someplace.
Thinking of giving up.
I wont win this race.
Not that way.
I just can't stop thinking what could be, would be true.
Is me and you.

Here

As you see all the memories that have set into place,
Don't forget to carry on with simplicity and grace
Travel far far from here, but always keep your heart near here.
Your first love you will never forget.
Move on with no regrets.
You can concour anything.
Everything.
Do anything.
Be your everything.
Don't ever forget in this world where you come from is here.