The Complexity of Simplicity

Mind doesn't function at normal speed

It's a roller coaster gone off of the tracks 

Headed for death

Sometimes I ponder if that would be best

Things come and go 

Too quickly for me to comprehend 

I am torn in between

Do I acknowledge this gift bestowed upon me

Use the capacity of my mind like none other

Or do I surpress and live in a dark depress

Melting the cheese in between 

Made golden brown

Pleasing to most in that way

But the torture is inside 

oozing out, the frustration of the day

I have surrendered up to you 

Yet contemplate the true definition of why we must try

In this life, wishing I could be catatonic

The most simple things trouble my mind

Looking for a deeper meaning, as if I don't already know 

There's nothing complex about the simplicity at hand 

It's my hungry nature.

Will I ever be full 

I am full.

Of things that I question the value of. 

Unrestrained.

I have come to the conclusion that maybe there is no existence of a soul on this planet that could attempt to comprehend what i have come to know as reality and normality. 

With this I leave you with the thought that there is more to me than you believe you can see.

Behind the laugh is a mind that stretches beyond belief 

it's something beautiful that seems so sinful to come to the realization as such

God only knows what has gone on and the decisions to arise.

The outcome is not known to any of his own kind. 

I try to cure it, but there is no way out. 

It is the way it is, and that an acceptance I must be willing to take before I start to rip apart from the inside out. 

I must cope with this unrestrained gift.

The silence begins, yet the writings continue. 

However, there will still be sound to some and to others none. 

Rain Clears a Window

The tears roll down my window
clearing away some of the confusion
and the way that I seem to be.
Making the view in sight so much easier to see.
Even though there is so much that you do not know.
This sightline is intended to be.
Not for me; not for you.
But for the good of mankind that it may have a glimpse of what it means to be whole again.
Open your eyes and let the rain fall.

But Not To Me

Twisting and tormenting happens

to every thought to enter in

to the depths of this apparent tomb

to wring out the pesticides. 

Clouded with moss growing above

there is a careless love. 

beneath however is something concealed. 

A code that can not be cracked no matter the attempts that are raged.

intelligible for some right from the start

but my mind is clouded while this monocle has followed through with it's purpose. 

Crystal clear.

Where to be is here

I ponder, I think, I dream, I reflect
on every instance that I encounter in the wind and the rain
as I fall dreamily into the trap of what my mind has to offer on the subject at hand I wonder.
the wonder is an awe and awe like a falcon in the sky breaking the dawn
these things I do not think are for me.
there is beauty in the most willowed of roses the stem shines green
a welcome for the day
a salutation to begin what you can not control
the will is there one has to reach
beyond the walls that are built by the self
conquer yourself and seize what is there to be offered
falling into place as the light shines through knowing there will be more dark
the dissonance stirs inside.
at that moment when i can't decide where to be
it is here.

Walk Ins Welcome

A guy walks in sits down
sees a girl
one would think
that he wouldn't think twice.
He did thought enough to order her coffee the way she likes it
brings it over with a kiss on the forehead
Simple hello, greeting of acknowledgment

sat there not expecting anything
content with the way life is
sitting on a spinning sphere
is where they fell in love and that's where they sat happily.

walked out and the bell rang,
rang for her to hold his hand
triggered him to look at her just they way so she knows what he means
A blink of an eye confirmed that it's true true as true can be

sat there not expecting anything
content with the way life is
sitting on a spinning sphere
is where they fell in love and that's where they happily sat

I sometimes ponder if they knew that it could be
just them together without a care in the world.
how'd they know that it was right
how'd they know not to end the night?

I'll know when I know and we'll sit there
not expecting anything content with the way life is
sitting on a spinning sphere is where we'll fall in love
and that's where we sit happily.

Together happily

Velvet Appearance

You say you only write sad songs
people like to hear.
You say they are not about you.
Hey as i walk on by
appearing to be just fine
and dandy that's how it seems
maybe if you took a layer off,
the thorn would burst between the velvet petals.
you didn't see it coming;
now it's too late.
You've become part of this melody.
Entranced by the pulls in each direction.
I wonder if you'll write a song about that.

No Clue

When we are young, we envision what we want for ourselves.
From the moment we are able to understand the concept, build a house.
To know it's what we own and what we make.

We know what we want.

We find what we want.

It leaves.

Leaving no clue as to what's next....

Except that's not what we need.

Floating, I Must; Eventually I Will.

Like a fish plucked from the ocean tossed into the foreign stream, is how it feels. Things were rolling down the river, of love.

Sometimes a waterfall would approach unexpectedly; it was all jumbled up.

The feelings I had inside.

Convincing myself they wouldn't last, the currents calmed. 

Maybe to the ocean for you after it is soothed.

To the lazy river for me. 

Without enough water to ease myself down.

Treading I must, still with questions of how it came to be.

Reality is what I know now, not how it used to seem. 

Soon, but not soon enough the river will flood.

I will float to stay alive. 

Still with the question. 

Today We Have Tomorrow Gained

I don't regret
I don't fret,
rather I reflect
on the things that used to be
analyze how they've changed.
Not putting one for reason over doubt.
Trusting in the Lord will I still do.
Lead me down a path
That has lead to unrest.
Perceived to be the unanymous best.
However,
The fact is fiction.

The Stomach

When will these feelings supress into what is really best
I try to make my way when you can't get out of mine
Not in reality it's in my mind
LIke how I thought you cared so mych about me as I did with you.
The four letter word has different meanings.
For me bviously something far greater than for you.
I pu tmy all in, I gave it all to you.
My all.
All you have to say is that the reason we were once sealed together
is now what tore us apart
past tense
is all that I have to say.
Because there is no possibiltiy.
that this could ever be not right now not today not tormorrow.
Unbroken just borke
us against the world and the world came down
tears down my face that I can't erase
They come down like the acitic words you said
Something that was great for putting the natural comfort zone out of it's place.
No longer will it stay not here not today.
I don't wish anything but maybe for you to see
how two people could love eachother so differently.
and yet have the same word for it. it can't be so. and I am sorry to see this go
more sorry than you
that you could express
hello to this mess.
from the other side of where I thought it'd be.
Water underthebridge is raining down on me.
Not the one.