Sustain

I was hesitant at first.
My head was overwhelmed,
with thoughts of doubt and thoughts of helplessnes.
I didn't know what was overtaking me,
or if I was ready
To committ to what my heart was telling me.

It took only a day to realize it,
but even then
comparing to now,
I couldn't tell you how much I love you.
I thought I knew it then,
But each day you show me.
I pray our love will sustain
but if it doesn't I won't take the Lord's name in vain.

Today We Have.

That light that he gives me-- it's everglowing
Although time is still moving and I am afraid of what might come next, I know that no matter what happens the things you've taught me and left with me will everglow. He's been so great to me, how could I forget the feeling? The feeling that will stay with me forever, no matter what. There will always be a piece of you in me, that's so comforting to know.  We are too young, and too unknowing to hypothesis what comes next. We ar incapable of making these choices or even pondering their value. Today is what we have, today we have eachother. Today we remember all the days before that have bonded us so strongly together and we look forward to the possibility that tomorrow will be another. Tomorrow, not the rest of our lives, because only fools rush in. I can't help falling in love with you, so that's what I will do until the day when it will everglow.

Freckles

Establishing a base for myself. 

A place where only a house could be built. 

A mansion of success.

Clearing away the debri is a necesity. 

It's going to take work and perseverance. 

I have the want can I have the will?

Trying different bricks to make the puzzle fall into place. 

Which one will be the next hand crafted? 

Aspiration

The struggle is real

who made this deal

it couldn't have been me

who else could it be

my head is spinning

all i can think about is winning

the prize in the end

not the road that has a bend

the place i want to rest

my strength is being put to the test

can I put up with the trial along the way

or will i end up here to stay

I long to explore to places a far 

while reflecting upon this scar

that made me who i am today

even though I had to pay 

it was worth it because im on the road

carrying this heavy load

my destiny, for that i'm searching

while the demons are lurking 

inside I believe that I can 

even though i am just one man

the aspiration is in sight

will I achieve it tonight?

You

Seamlessly melded together. 

Something new and exciting. 

A discovery for both.  

Look at all you have we say to one another in a shadow of laughter. 

A laughter that cures any disease taking over the body. 

Incoming you were. 

Tide

Do you miss me like i miss you? 

It's the pauses in between that get to me. 

Like a badly staged scene change. 

Not implying it must be action throughout, but I just worry. 

Anxious feelings inside build up until then. 

When i see you again. 

Maybe it's the longing in between that keeps the tide rolling. 

You are the beach that I long to meet. 

Sometimes

We all feel it, on ocassion. 

Sadness lurks like a shadow. 

Different than the normal kind, this one is in front. 

We feel as though that's all that is ahead for us. 

There must have been something to cast that shadow. 

A light from somewhere. 

It's not always like this. 

Only sometimes. 

But those sometimes are what gets us most. 

Trying hard to find the light, we grasp and gasp. 

We find a little bit of it and hold if for a day. 

Sometimes. 

LoVe

It's written in the stars; it's written in our hearts.
God is it, but it isn't God.
The feeling when you long so much to see someone?
The fact that they inspire you everyday to be the best you can be?
The way you look into each others eyes?
Could it be something drawn from within?
Something far too deep to ever know for sure.
It grows.
Like none other.
Far too great to imagine.
The fantasies, they could posses it for what the eye can see.
But one can't see it.
A feeling.
A feeling that is ever so alive.
It's not living, but everything alive has it encompassed inside.
Because it is what created it.
The dark can't dim the power it threshes into you and I.
It takes courage, and kindness to use it to it's full capacity.
It's our quest to find it, but how do we know when we have found it?
Don't ask why any longer, nor propose how.
For don't you see?
It is love.

Fig

Gee, golly gee. 

Why me? 

Why did I have to be born in this generation? 

It couldn't be. 

I don't belong here you see. 

Maybe that's why I am. 

To make a wave. 

A tsunami of passion. 

To lead the next hurricane.  

Maybe I am the grain. 

The grain of sand. 

There are many out there yet few are noticed. 

For significance. 

What is this spoken of? 

Sig fig? 

Well, i could go for a fig. 

Surely I am not from this generation. 

The 7th

You're a raindrop on an April day
You make me smile in that way
you say my giggle makes you smile too
do you know that it's just for you
When you play for me, i cant get enough
Boy, this isn't a bluff
They way you look at me
I think to myself how lucky could I be
all the things that I love about you, I couldn't write them down
so happy that I met you in this small town
when you talked to me for the first time, i'll admit, I just froze
I know this is just the beginning, but I can't wait to see where this goes

Latch

Why do I attach? 

I watched the flowers grow, and the lovers go. 

 perineals. 

The absence of the example depicting strength through the winter. 

Something i have now, that i don't want to go.

Fear 

Steer clear what if. 

One day its gone. 

I grasp. 

Comfort you are. 

But where do we go? 

To tomorrow. 

She let herself go

How do you tell a person that you greatly care about a time when you let yourself go?
The time when you feel as though you weren't the slightest bit of yourself.

The Limit Does Not Exist

+1 or -1
One extreme to the other
.5
what is that?
could it be the medium?
What is the limit of the medium to life?
The how you are brought up- nurture
the jeans in which I wear- nature
jeans- you can take off and put on, they change.
your nurture- how do you suggest change in this?
it is not yourself who nurtures the within, it is the outer.
It can now be theorized that the limit does not exist because all the equation has seen is one correlation or the other.

Cataract

There are too many moments when I question what my purpose is.
Why can't it be clear as day?
Why can't I not deny this?
There are perks of me, there are specs I am not proud of.
Just breathe.
As deep as you can go.
And let it out again.
The sensation when you release.
That's why you are here.
That is your break from this crazy life.
On top of a mountain.
I fear. I fell.
Off the top.
Finger by finger, inch by inch.
I grasp what I can.
I prize it.
Do you prize me?
A flower gone un watered-- a rose in the winter blossoms.
Is the box train open for me?
I have said too much, it's time for me to go.

Box Car

In or out
no in between
no alternate route
leave it behind
go forward
stay behind
wonder what it would be like
the battle is inevitable
no exit sign
no this way
there is a path
taken by the courageous
a foot step on
two feet on deck
among the slippery floor
fallen
no alternate route
no recalculation
Not a hand reaching out
not one that is seen
is it there?
the mind on the right side wonders
the left says get back on.
Crossroad
the worse kind.